Heavier Things
A day of thanks was far from it. I tried, I truly did. On top of being ill the day just seemed so…… heavy. A broken heart and empty arms consumed me. Why today? It was only Thanksgiving. Oh my, Christmas is around the corner. As I lounged around in my pajamas my husband handed me the “Black Friday” ads. Not that I had planned on going out in that mess, but I still wanted to see what I was going to miss out on. That’s what did it. I realized I should be planning a shopping list, hitting the deals, trimming the tree and all things babies first Christmas. The tears came, streaming, heavy, endless.
Can we just escape the holidays? This makes me sad and a little disappointed in myself. My mood has been thick through today, and than something happened. The moon, well it happens every-night, bright shiny thing in the dark sky.Yep, that's what I'm talking about - you've seen it I'm sure. Well unless you live on the moon. But this was different, the night sky was cloudy, looking up there was a luminous ring around the moon where the clouds had seperated forming a perfect "O". The colors where amazing, a hazy orange with bright flecks of white light and deep purple clouds kind enough to avoid my view. It was beautiful. My light I needed to see to awake my inner Positive Polly - good night Negative Nelly you need your rest. I feel lighter already.
we will be here for positive polly
ReplyDeleteSo many times you, Gordy and Owen cross my mind. I always say a little prayer for all of you. Although I was never able to hold Owen in my arms, I truly hold him in my heart.
ReplyDeleteI know you are all loved dearly and will be thinking and praying for you continuously. I still remember talking to you on the phone the night Owen was born. I loved hearing about all that was precious and wonderful. I will never forget you saying how little he was and how he wrapped his little fingers around your finger. I could hear you smiling on the phone. Love you tons!!! Christina